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Tonight was a great night out, a night full of laughters, jokes, nonsense, and craps..hahaha.. it’s been a long time since i laugh till i almost drop, i mean it..it’s fun..with all the jokes from daniel and gene…hahaha

well, the night start with dinner at ismail ikan bakar, full of teasing and jokes as well…also, stupid made-up-on-the-spot-story..thanks to the 2 jokers from intel…hahaha half way thru dinner, hanwei came and join us..well, the laughter goes on…

stories about my "so-called" husband (i dont know who), fish, poilitics, religions, sotong, people…bla..bla..bla..

then, suddenly i got a call from siao hui jie..she updated me about one of our friends..well, i guess, im glad to have her and her husband around us, at least, they are good people..i just hope that he will be protected from bad people, he will not be influence easily and he will be mature enough to think also i hope that he will listen to siao hui jie and her husband..anyway, let’s not talk about that…

then, we moved from ismail ikan bakar to queens..hahaha…we crap and tease each other non-stop..hahaha..i was literally laughing and laughing and laughing…i guess everyone in hanwei’s car had fun.. (:

well, oh also, while the rest are waiting to pay the bill, i brought daniel for a walk around queens, hehe..one of the shop we went into? …XIXILI!!!! pretending to buy their products, discussing about the design..so funny …LOL..then we went to nike..pretending again…hahaha

then, dennis, ben, gene, hanwei are there to pay the bill, lawrence came and auntie evelyn and family… farnee lawrence with all da jokes..this fellow going to KL tmr…ceh~~~syoknye…

anyway, it was really a great nite, oh, then we went to the so called seaside in front of agilent to chat and eat..hehehe..again, all the stupid jokes as husband and wife, bf and gf, darling  ang honey came out again… HAHAHA..lolzzzzzz…and lawrence, you’re in the story as well (as someone’s darling)….kekeke

I thank God for this great night, it was fun, and i really enjoy it…that’s why i blog about it..wanna keep it as a memory…and i thank God for the people He brought into my life…i love them all and appreciate each and everyone of them… (:

Wheee~~~enjoying my life right now…

**Praise God from whom all blessings flow**

Like i said in my previous blogs, many things happened to me in the last few months..many are downs but there’re also ups.. the ups moments are really sweet and joyful..but then the downs comes, it is bitter and tough…

Nonetheless, i do not want to emphasis too much on what had happened, after all it is the past, but i believe, what i’ve gone thru, will one day be used by God. . .

Throughout this few months, especially the last few weeks, eversince i was sick and came back "alive" , God had taught me a lot of stuff…like what Samuel said " You actually gain from this incident " …well, samuel, i must agree with you… i actually, eventually, learned a lot from this incident..

i’ve actually gained myself a close friend, a good friend i will say (not sure if you will agree, but i just wanna say that you’re one of my close friend now..) thanks for supporting me, in prayer and in crapping, in listening to my problems, and to lean me your shoulder, a pair of listening ears, praying for me with or without me knowing it, temaning me here and there, tho sometimes, your schedule are pack and you’re busy and you’re tire,… im really glad to have a friend like you…you helped me stand after a deep fall and honestly, i do listen to you..so yeah, thanks for your friendship…i really really appreciate it…thanks sam…

Not only gaining myself a close friend, God also showed me, the people who are truly my close friends and my family, people who care and love me…the list? below…

Many people i need to thank and my list will go on and on and on…but, nonetheless, i wanna thank all of you, i know all of you have been supporting me, especially in prayers with or without me knowing it, i thank God for He put you in my life…

1. My family and siblings : you all love me despite of what happened, you all didnt force me into telling what had happened, and you all traveled all the way down to find me and support me..i love you all..thanks 2nd sis, bro, elder sis, mum and dad…

2. Pik Nooi : for visiting me early in the morning, and come after work, i know you have  pack schedule, but you and jeremy came, bcx you guys care for me, sharing my burden and advising me, whether in spiritual life or health

3. William and Foong Yeng: for being there for me from the very beginning, overseeing me from head to toe, listening to my problems and for taking care of me when i overnight at your place, for cooking for me(nice food), for praying for me and foong yeng, you are great, i still rmbr you coming to my side and say " it’s okay, you dont have to say anything, im just here for you"…that, is what i needed sometimes..thanks

3. Margaret, Angela, Theresa : thanks for treating me as your family, thanks for visiting me most of the days

4. Samuel : thanks for visiting me after your show and talk to me till midnight, luckily, you didnt kena chase out, with all the craps and nonsense and seriuos stuff that we talked about, it actually lessen my heartache and cheer me up, i sleep well every night after you visited me, you’re a great friend

5. My dearest housemate, florence :  thanks for getting all my stuff for me, like i told samuel, you’re a very organise and systematic person, thanks for supporting me by being there, seeing me sleeping (hehe) and in prayers…i love you..gonna miss you lots if you were to move…thanks for visiting me, and really really thank you for preparing everything for me…without your great help, i dont know how to survive there…

6. Val, Kean Chai, Wei Yen : thanks for your prayers and sms-es, appreciate it very much… Val, thanks…thanks for all your prayers and your love for me.. i know, you’ll alwiz be there for me when i needed someone…thanks Val..i dont know how to express my thanks, but you know what? your sms and dimsum actually blessed me and encourages me…

7. Benji : Ah…thank God for you bro…truly, it is a blessing to know you, your words for me…helped me a lot to stand up again..truly, you’re a warrior for God..thanks for your encouragement and words, without it, i might still be the "fallen-allyson"… but now, im up and going again…

8. Jared : Thanks for being there for me too, i appreciate it… not sure how to thank you, but i guess the best way is to wish you all the best in your future and well, she’s a great girl.. wish you all the blessing from God…thanks for the songs and psalm too…

9. Yupei, Marcus, KimBeng, Cordelia, Celia, Veronica, HanWei, Surain, Nana, Cherly, Auntie Evelyn, Catherine, Lawrence, Ithie, Debs, Aiching, Dennis : i know the prayers that you guys said for me..thank you, without it, i am not where i am today..thanks for the shoudler and arms and hugs for me to cry on…

10. Pozzi : for your sms all the way from US..bring a smile to my face when i see it (:

11. Pao Sium : thanks for your sms on batman begins and "not-giving-up-on-yourself"… truly pao…that sms..i will remember always…

12. Saik Ee, Steven Shum, Say Leong, Bee Ling : arigato for visiting me and helping me thru all these..you guys are great and thanks for your listening ears, advices and time… i know that anytime, anywhere, when i needed any of you guys, you all will definitely be there for me..i know you guys will never disappoint me..so yeap..thank God for all of you…

13. My friend, CheeWooi : who scolded me and at the same time, not wanting to bring me from the carpark to clinic!.. (haha)

Last sunday, during worship (29 July), God reminded me of what had happened, and again i was reminded of His promises for me, at the same time, He reminded me of the people whom was there to support me throughout these few weeks and I THANK GOD for each and everyone of you… indeed, without you guys, im still "i-dont-know-where"…because of your love, care, concern, support, prayer,smses, etc for me, i’m still here today… i asked God to bless each and everyone of you back, double and even more, to protect all of you and to take care of all of you…

**Praise God from whom all blessing flows**

Please……..move on…because I already am moving on…

We can’t stand in the middle of the road, it’s either we step forward and don’t look back anymore or look back and make a U turn…we can’t stand in the middle…

But, for me…I choose to move forward, I’ve already move on…

So please…..move on…

One of the sms i get from my friend, Pao Sium, about 3 weeks back, maybe on 11 or 12 July…

She said " Boon, do you rmbr one of the Batman Begins 05/06 movie, where Christian Bale acted in it? One of the line he asked, " Do you know why we fall?" and he replied to his own question, he said, " So that we can pick ourselves up again"…

Then another line that came with the sms was " Boon, don’t you ever give up on yourself." As i read this sms, i cried, tears kept rolling down my cheeks, i cried non stop, the tears kept rolling because this sentence just struck me ~"dont you ever give up on yourself"…even right now, thinking and writing about it, makes my eyes watery…thanks Pao..thanks for this sms..thanks for making me realize that i shouldn’t…thanks for "bringing senses" to me thru this sms…thanks for telling me, not to give up on myself…i will not..because i know i shouldn’t, because i know my friends didnt give up on me, because i know my family didn’t give up on me and most importantly, i know He will never give up on me..not on you, not on me..He never give up on us…

Your life will flourish

Beautiful future

Great future

Forget your sins

Let go of the regrets and disappointments that I have in my hearts

For the Lord sees it no more and forgives you

For all that you’ve lost; the Lord will give back 100 times

The Lord remembers my sins no more, don’t look back

The Lord is embracing me with His loving hands

No doubt in God

He has taken me out of a big mess

Thank God for that

Look for future and not the past

God has the best thing in line for me

Total peace, enjoy His joy

The Lord never forsake me

Holding my hands

Live victorious life

The Lord is concern about your future and not your past

Don’t look back at the past for it is now over

You’ll see things that you’ve never desire before

hehe..this post came a bit late..but i just wanna post it so that i can remember the date! because it is a CELEBRATION for me… (:

i got my new 2nd hand car on…..8 JULY 2007…

WOooooooOOOO~~~hOOOOOOooooo…

hehe..thanks to my dad and mum who bought the car for me…

until now, the car serves me well, hehehe..tho there’re a bit of sounds here and there, but it’s okay…most importantly, i can "move" from A to B easily…

winnie; da baby cat~ sorry for late reply…hehe..yes, yes, we can go "yau-ceh-hor" anytime…so deal ya, our date…hehehe…

"Praise God from whom all blessing flows"

This is one of the devotional materials that my friend send to me every morning.. and this particular devotion, which was sent to me on 24 July 2007, spoke to me so directly and clearly… as i read this devotion, i can’t help but cry…i was sad because i know i need to let go of a lot of things and i wanted to, but i do not know how…im lost as i do not know where to start…apart of me want to let go and a part of me still hoping to get things back… nonetheless, i cried and felt confuse and at the same time happy because God says He will restore double to me, and you… many things happened in the last three months; mostly downs but there’re also ups…

anyway, i will write more as to what happened when i have time…and most importantly, right now, i’ve LET GO… (:

well, i’ve copy adn paste this devotional material, do read thru it when you have time..in a way or another, i hope that you’ll be bless as well…

He Will Restore Double To You…

"Return to the stronghold, O prisoners who have hope. This very day I am declaring that I will restore double to you." Zechariah 9:12

It’s a painful moment to go through in life when we lost something and it will never be easy to face the fact of losing something so dear to your heart. Sadness and sorrow will overwhelm our hearts when we lost something very precious and valuable to us. Loses can be in forms of job, spiritual passion, money, friendship, relationship, health and material things. Any kind of loses can cause a heart breaking moment in this life and it will pull us to the lowest point of our life. But today I have good news to tell you. There is hope for everything that you have lost. No matter what has been taken away from you, if you give it over to God, He will return to you more than you could ask or imagine. He’ll make things right and give you more than what was lost or stolen from you. The Bible will never lie but it always reveals the truth. Have faith and believe what the Bible says. Without believing and hoping, you can’t see the reality of the Word of God manifest in your life. Believe, you who have hope in the Lord, for He has said, "This very day I am declaring that I will restore double to you." Zechariah 9:12. All your hope in God will never go in vain; He always has the best thing in His mind for you. God wants to multiply your joy, peace, wisdom, health, finances and a double portion of His favour in every area of your life! If you want to gain back what you have lost in the past, you have to let go of the disappointments of yesterdays and pressing on to move forward. Until and unless you let go of all your old baggage you’ll never experience the new thing that Lord wants to do in your life. Let go and let God take control. Dearest, it’s time to turn away from your past disappointments and reach out in faith to God’s abundant future. Be glad and get prepared to experience God’s restoration and His abundance in your life once again. He is your God and He will restore double to you.

Prayer for Today

Father God, I praise You with all my heart for You are the God of the double portion! I give You the losses and disappointments of my past, trusting Your love and provision for me. I’m not going to be sad on my loses anymore but by faith I want to move forward to experience Your abundant grace and restoration in my life once again. Lord, I have more than enough in You. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.